Craig

I would never tell him I didn't think we could ever communicate....

I asked him if he ever thought we could cimmunicate...He said he was beginning to highly doubt it....    then left to Fresno.  

Lord jesus....what do I do? 

Never thought that I would hear my husband thought it highly likely We could communucate.... I know you mean me.... I'm sorry that I don't meet your expectations....  I re read some very personal blogs of mine...This is not a new place for us.... I guess it's up to us to choose to work past it, ignore it or come to terms with it.  I'm exhausted with always being wrong.  I'm not sure you're capable of thinking you ever do anything wrong.... I'm tired of stuffing my feelings...just as I'm sure you are.   Everything is always my fault.... communication...financial....everything... I am taking full responsibility. ... ..I'm sorry for being such a dissapointment....

Joy

http://bible.com/111/LUK6.38.NIV Give, and it will be given to you. A good measure, pressed down, shaken together and running over, will be poured into your lap. For with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.” Bible.com/app

This doesn't just mean monetary giving.  Be kind to others and they will be more apt to be kind to you.  Love others....

2013....all year long

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qoh26pC2RT8&feature=youtube_gdata_player

No matter how close or distant I am, God is always with me.

God is so good

His timing is always right.    I was reading "The Confident Woman" this morning, and the two days I needed to catch up on talked about fellowshipping with our sin or with Jesus.    I would much rather fellowship with Jesus!  The last time I blogged, I was fellowshipping with my sin!  

The second day talked about approval addiction.   I have struggled with approval  addiction.   It is ok to want approval, but we shouldnt need it.   We should always know that we do our best....and that Jesus loves us....even when we mess up.....but what is it imside of us that we need approval?  

No condemnation

http://bible.com/111/rom8.1-2.niv Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit who gives life has set you free from the law of sin and death.

Satan doesn't want me to believe this.   Since Saturday,  I have heard;  the lucky ones are the ones that didn't catch me.  (Satan)
I am dysfunctional and communicate like my brother (Craig)
Which also reminded me that I am just like missy (me)
& then have ran through so many past sins in my head.   From high school through parenting. .. and even when Mona sent an incredibly sweet email. ..my thought was on how I screwed that up.   

Thank you Jesus that there is no condemnation in you.  

Respecting my husband

http://bible.com/111/EPH5.33.NIV However, each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband. Bible.com/app

RESPECT

A saintly woman was well-known for her good word about everyone. Although people often tried, they were never able to get her to speak evil of anyone. One day while she was talking with a friend, the town drunk staggered by. The friend thought there was surely nothing redeeming about this old reprobate and took the opportunity to quiz her godly friend: "What have you got to say about him?" The saintly woman simply replied, "Well, he is a good whistler."

It is a rare person who can see the best in everyone. But the Bible tells us that this is the norm for a healthy marriage. For example, the wife is commanded: Let the wife see that she respects her husband (Ephesians 5:33). The husband, of course, should earn this reverence and respect. Some husbands make the commandments of Christ hard to fulfill; however, there is no "if" included in this verse of Scripture. When the wife learns to see the good, however little, in her mate, respect can grow. Men may be motivated by criticism, but they often become bitter and angry toward a nagging wife. On the other hand, men motivated by respect and love become loving husbands.

The wise woman gives her husband respect and, in doing so, learns that this law of love diminishes the cares and toils of daily life.

More dysfunction

We have fleas....but when he says it it is always my fault.  I brought in the parallel that he expects this of me but isn't willing to help me clean.   Hes upset because I am not just addressing the issue at hand.   We are only allowed to talk about what bothers him .  And the reason he doesn't help is all of the things I put on his plate...meaning the property...and I communicate just like my brother......