Monday, October 6, 2014

Day 6


Proverbs 3:5-6 NIV

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;   in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Lord, I am seeking you.  I am trusting you to make my marraige something that glorifies you.  Forgive my doubt.  

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Wow

Once again Craig and I are back where we always end up. Money...

I  am reading  Messy Beautiful Love ... the chapter is talking about what love is....

Patient
Kind-  Craig has never accused me of being kind... Lord I know I am quick to talk, and am sometimes , ok oftentimes unkind.  I want to be kind as you see kindness.  Where I am weak please be strong.
Does not envy
Does not boast- Lord, please show me how to not be boastful but to take pleasure in Craig.
Is not proud.... esteem others as higher than yourself.  This sometimes makes me nervous or anxious.... what about me? What about my boundaries?  Who is going to fill me?   As I was asking this question,God answered in the quietness of my heart.... jesus said....Let ME.....    how can that happen?  Only in prayer and worship.  

Monday, September 1, 2014

Forgive me

http://bible.com/111/HEB13.4 Marriage should be honored by all, and the marriage bed kept pure, for God will judge the adulterer and all the sexually immoral. Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” Bible.com/app

Father, I have sinned against you, myself and Ray.  Please forgive me.   Jesus I continued to sin, even while single.   Sexual sin is so ...... have I also caused my husband to sin?  

Robert
Jody
Thomas


Monday, August 25, 2014

For this child I have prayed

1 Samuel 1:10-18, 28 NIV


In her deep anguish Hannah prayed to the Lord , weeping bitterly. And she made a vow, saying, “ Lord Almighty, if you will only look on your servant’s misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the Lord for all the days of his life, and no razor will ever be used on his head.” As she kept on praying to the Lord , Eli observed her mouth. Hannah was praying in her heart, and her lips were moving but her voice was not heard. Eli thought she was drunk and said to her, “How long are you going to stay drunk? Put away your wine.” “Not so, my lord,” Hannah replied, “I am a woman who is deeply troubled. I have not been drinking wine or beer; I was pouring out my soul to the Lord . Do not take your servant for a wicked woman; I have been praying here out of my great anguish and grief.” Eli answered, “Go in peace, and may the God of Israel grant you what you have asked of him.” She said, “May your servant find favor in your eyes.” Then she went her way and ate something, and her face was no longer downcast. So now I give him to the Lord . For his whole life he will be given over to the Lord .” And he worshiped the Lord there.


Dedicate my children to the Lord.  Thank you jesus for Miranda and deven.  Thank you for giving us a relationship that has been good.  Lord jesus I dedicate Miranda to you.  I give her to you.  You love her so much more than I ever could. I release her into your hands. It is so hard giving up what I feel is control although I know I have no control and never have.  father, please remeber the compassion you placed on her heart as a little girl.  So compassionate towards everyone.    I give you deven... thank you for my son.  Lord forgive my sins towards my children.  Break the bondage of the past.  I dedicate,  deven to you father.  you love him more than I ever could.  Show us how to live him.  Lord please return to him his sensitive spirit.  Thank you for him.  

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Seeking Gods will

Diligently seeking Gods will regarding what school to attend.  Brandman or GCU..... Lord, please give me Your wisdom and peace.
2014.8.25. Thank you father foe the peace to drop bramdman and go with GCU.  Thank you jesus for your favor.

Rhonda
2014.8.25. Please continue to heal her spirit soul and body. Thank you father that she is at Davis and not here. 

Steve and Staci

Conversation with Ally .2014.08.25.
Father, thank you that the conversation has went well with ally.  Please give her peace knowinf she is where you want her to be. 

Please also give Maria peace.  Lord you know who you want for this position.  Please send the right person.   

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Col 3 1

http://bible.com/111/COL3.1 Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things.
Bible.com/app

Forgive me Father, I have been desiring things of the world.  I want a nice house, where I am not ashamed to bring people over. 

We've talked about fostering, but cant in this house.  Is that why I have been looking?  I dont know. 

I feel the property owns us.

I love the property though.  Lord, I ask that you lead Craig.  I feel that I have had to change so much since we first married.  I have had to give up....but so has he.  Lord I used to be able to serve you.... yes that is what your word says...that remaining single is better because we think of you not of our spouse.   Lord, I dont feel he listens.... so instead I will come to you....

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

How

I dont know how to talk to my husband.     Today he said I should get rid of m6 horses.   Father...this is who I was when we started dating.

I have been feeling for a long time that he doesnt love me for me but for the idea of who he wants me to be.   Hed like me to quit work...get rid of the horses.....kick miranda out.. .no chickens..nothing unless he says it ok. 

Im tired...lord, I want to turn to you...
Please help me.  Help me understand and express myself in a way that is pleasing to you.  Help craig have ears that hear....

Ephesians 5:1-2 NIV

Follow God’s example, therefore, as dearly loved children and walk in the way of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.